Wednesday, January 2, 2008

Trusting My Intuition

I just had such an amazing experience!

I'm working with clients today. I've been on vacation and my wife will be here tonight, so I'll be back on vacation for another week, but figured I'd work from home in my healing practice while waiting on her to get here.

So I'm working with my 5th client this afternoon, and I get, intuitively, that in addition to just working on the healing exercise he would be using that he also needed to find a specific memory to focus on as he heals. He asked for all the intuitive info I could give him to help him with uncovering the memory...

What's fascinating is that I got a general piece of info about the area we needed to work in, but when we tried to get specific to narrow it down, it wasn't either of the choices. And I have to admit that right at that moment, I felt a little scared!

Though I do trust my intuition generally, I admit I may have a fondness for control, and I don't like that feeling of not knowing what to do next!

Finally, though, it occurred to me to explore connections to the general area we'd been wandering around in. And there it was!

Two amazing things happened...

I got chills when he got close to the memory because my body knew we had hit pay dirt.

And then, once we really landed on it, one of his physical symptoms spontaneously cleared up while we were on the phone!

Have I mentioned how much I love the work I do? I am so grateful that I get to walk alongside these wonderful people and help facilitate their healing!

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Welcome to 2008!!

Fast away the old year passes
Hail the new, ye lads and lasses
Sing we joyous all together
Heedless of the wind and weather.

I've been thinking a lot about the mysteries of time this morning. Well, ever since last night, actually!

During last night's countdown, I was on the phone with my wife, which was a wonderful moment. But she was two hours away, so her own "countdown" wouldn't come until later. And it dawned on me that at that moment, I was living in 2008 while she was living in 2007. A love across time, if you will! :)

We were both struck by that thought, that we were living in two different times. Which brings me to this morning's pondering about how God sees time.

I went looking for New Year's blessings and found this...

We are creatures in time and space, and it helps us both practically and psychologically to be able to speak of "this century, this year, this month, this millennium."

But God's time is quite another matter. We don't know about God's time. There's at least a fair chance that it runs in two directions, not just one, forward and back like a bead on a string. Who knows if it's in more than two dimensions? Maybe God's time stands still sometimes. Maybe it dances, bending, contracting, expanding, playing among the galaxies, putting the space-time continuum in a twist. Maybe time is so totally irrelevant to God that we can forget time ever existed. (I doubt that, somehow: time is too neat and fascinating for that.) I am quite certain that Isaac Watts had it wrong when he wrote "A thousand ages in Thy sight/ Are like an evening gone." That's much too simple. I think God's time is going to be far more complicated and mysterious than a simple 1000 age/1 evening ratio. I expect it to be in colours that we humans haven't even thought of yet. ~~Molly Wolf

I love the idea of God's time dancing and bending!

Makes me think of jazz hands and Broadway and "let's put on a show!" Getting ready backstage, waiting for the curtain to rise, so excited you can hardly stand it. And then, once the show begins, the magic that unfolds is dazzling, so bright it lifts you into a whole other dimension.

That's my wish for this next year: moments of magic, razzle-dazzle excitement, and jazz-hand empowerment, sandwiched in between moments of deep watching-the-river-flow contentment!

Monday, December 31, 2007

An "Auld Lang Syne" Friday Five on Monday :)

From RevGalBlogPals ...

With that in mind, share five memorable moments of 2007. These can be happy or sad, profound or silly, good or bad but things that you will remember.

Bonus points for telling us of a "God sighting"-- a moment when the light came through the darkness, a word was spoken, a song sung, laughter rang out, a sermon spoke to you in a new way--whatever you choose, but a moment in 2007 when you sensed Emmanuel, God with us.

Okay, how fun!! Here they are, although my Friday Five is actually Monday More...

1) In March, I found out that my partner was not going to be able to move here with her daughter, as we'd planned. And because of the glitches we'd encountered, we had no idea when she'd be able to move and still don't! That loss was worth almost 10lbs and a bit of depression.

2) On April 9th, knowing we needed to have something good happen, I suggested we have a commitment ceremony over the phone, just me and her and God. So we did! I had a book of creative ceremonies that had prayers, invocations, poetry, vows, etc. It was wonderful!!

3) In June, I went back to Virginia Beach, where I lived for about 16 years, and watched one of my very best friends get married! I am almost tearing up (yet again) just thinking about it. As close friends do, we shared so much of our romantic discouragement, and encouraged each other over the years to hang in there, promising each other that one day we'd be past all the pain, both of us happy in love. And here we were, both having found the loves of our lives!! It was magical experience!

4) Late this summer, my partner and her daughter both came to visit and the four of us had a wonderful vacation together. The kids took to each other almost immediately and had great fun hanging out. In our hearts, we became family! And every ordinary "family" moment was precious to me.

5) Right after that, I found out that my landlord of 4 years was going to sell the Victorian duplex I had loved for all of those years and my son and I would have to move. I didn't want to move! But I am oh, so glad I did!! I love our new home, from the private entrance, to the stairs and 2nd floor living that Jonathan envisioned, to the screened-in balcony, to the courtyard full of trees that is my magnificent view every day, to the garden tub in my bathroom!

6) I had a strong sense that my partner and I would see each other in November, but had no idea why, how or when. But I have learned to trust this kind of intuitive information and I just sort of let it float around in my head. Well, around the last week of October, Shelly found out that none of the people at her work who had been scheduled to attend an upcoming workshop in Toronto would be able to go and they were going to send her instead (paying for her airfare, hotel stay and meals). We immediately made plans for me to join her there to get married, and that's what we did!

7) I have had an incredible Christmas season!! I found wonderful ways to celebrate, some big, some small, every single day and each moment of celebration was both charmed and meaningful!

8) I have two "bonus" memories ... months ago, I asked God to know more about God-as-feminine, as mother, and almost immediately afterwards, discovered the moon. And I mean, an incredible connection and really soothing, comforting experience each time I saw the moon. I also began to have some mystical experiences in nature, in general, that fostered a much deeper sense of loving connection with God.

My second bonus memory has to do with the wisdom of God in choosing Joseph as a parent for Jesus. In my post yesterday, I wrote much more about that, but yesterday's sermon really opened my eyes to ways in which Jesus seems to "take after" Joseph.

I am SOOOO deeply grateful for this past year! It was not without challenge!! But there has been so much joy. So much God, really :).

Sunday, December 30, 2007

Joseph, who raised Jesus...

I haven't posted for the past couple of days because I haven't been feeling well. For some reason, it seems that God often chooses to get my attention when I don't feel well. Either that, or I'm more likely to listen closely!

Actually, I guess we must have some kind of agreement in place, that I hope will soon come up for review, because there must be much better ways to help me make spiritual shifts. I'm feeling better today and I'm so glad I went to church (I considered not going).

The pastor talked about Joseph and how powerful it was for him to decide not to do what the Bible said when he found out Mary was pregnant. And he mentioned several things the Bible says that we now question (like women covering their heads). He said something I'd never thought of before, that completely changed the way I look at Joseph and his role in Jesus' life.

He said, "I can understand why the boy that Joseph raised would say something like You have heard 'an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth', but I say to you...'. "

"And I can understand why the boy that Joseph raised would not support stoning the woman caught in adultery but would instead say, let whoever is without sin cast the first stone." After all, that's what should have happened to his mother, but didn't.

I've never thought before about Jesus knowing that about Mary, or being influenced by the kind of person Joseph was, who could decide on his own that in spite of what the Bible said, it would be kinder and more loving and therefore, better, to protect Mary. To be raised knowing that story would be powerful, indeed.

And also, to have a father figure who clearly had a relationship with God and was guided by Him, instead of strictly following the Bible. Who could plot to outwit the ruler of the day because that's what God wanted him to do.

Someone on RevGals mentioned feeling like Joseph is sort of forgotten and undervalued. I remember reading her thoughts and sort of shrugging. Joseph seemed incidental in many ways. But today's sermon really helped me see how big a role he must have played in who Jesus became.